whole thing kills me and eats my whole being

the pain destroys me whole I do not know what to do still suffering a lot but still love you already have one in my place, I wanted to live to your your side but I know that would be selfishness on my part to get it then you are very happy it, while I do not know the fate reserved for me, happy without you I will not be but still let you go if they have to be either very happy my big sole and eternal love